. . . is chocolate. It is the single most troublesome food standing in the way of me and completing the Autoimmune Protocol. It is a problem for a number of reasons:
1) Chocolate is a seed, and seed are not permitted on the AIP;
2) The way I generally eat it, it contains lots of refined sugar; and
3) Unless you choose very carefully, it probably also contains soy lecithin, which is not a Paleo or AIP food.
But it tastes so good. And it hits an emotional soft spot. It just feels good.
But the good feeling is short lived. It’s not a healthy food for me. It gives me an upset tummy after I eat it (usually in too large a quantity), and often leads to constipation over the next day or two. And the caffeine probably isn’t helping either. Doesn’t really seem worth it, does it? So why do I keep going back to it?
Chocolate is a crutch, a form of medication. I reach for it when I’m tired, with the mistaken belief that it is going to make me feel better. Emotionally maybe, but not physically. It’s a bandaid solution that masks a larger problem. Low energy caused by insufficient sleep, poor food choices, lack of exercise, and burned-out adrenal glands. Fix these issues and the chocolate cravings might disappear – what a concept! Easier said than done.
I’m hosting a four year old’s birthday party in four days, and I made the mistake of buying a gluten-free chocolate cake mix, which means I’m planning to eat some of this cake. The idea that I would spend a day decorating it and not eat any was not sitting well, so I guess I’ll be indulging. And then we will talk more about breaking up with chocolate, again.